Struggling

The past two weeks have been difficult. Kids and pets have all needed extra time and care. I have been struggling more than usual this summer, trying to fight the thoughts that weigh me down and added worries sure don't help. Each of the challenges lately have caused me to pray that I will be, say, and do the right things, meanwhile fighting my own inner bully that tells me I am not good enough. So far I am still duking it out and though I may not be winning the fight I am still standing.
The biggest blow has been that I decided to put down my pet cat, who has been with me for 12 years. I am struggling with that decision in part because of my own feelings of failure but also because of comments from others. As with any issue, we are each entitled to our own opinions and should be able to express them.  I also know that it is up to me how I will allow an other's viewpoint effect me, but that does not mean that does not add to the hurt.
I wanted to write this post just so that I will remember when these events occurred.

Peanut